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Sunday, September 30, 2007
Life and Trust are almost similar but yet different identities...
Both can disappear in a split moment..
In a fatal mistake Life can be lost Trust can be broken..
Life that is lost can never be found back again..
Only God is the giver of Life..
Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life..
Though Trust that is broken can be mended..
It will never be fully back again..
Only God is faithful and never-changing..
In Him only can we place our totalTrust..
Only God reigns over Life and Trust..
Deo Volente prayed to God at 10:28 PM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
I woke up this morning and realised that my swollen cheek has reduced in size by around 30%.
However, my wound started bleeding again. Sighs...
oh God...
Deo Volente prayed to God at 2:34 PM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
I have been listening to Corrinne May's latest album the whole day.
Its called Beautiful Seed.
I feel that this is her best album yet.
Her songs and lyrics are all so meaningful.
Here's my favourite - Five Loaves and Two Fishes
A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly the day turned into night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out with the trust of a child
He said
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all
I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give You every breath that I have
Oh Lord, You can work miracles
All You need is my "Amen"
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in You
I trust in You
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small
Deo Volente prayed to God at 3:03 PM
I woke up this morning shocked to find myself looking like a hamster.
Don't worry, I haven't become furry over the night.
Its just that my left cheek is swollen and I look like a hamster who has hidden food in my left cheek. Hah.. Its not a very nice feeling with one side of your face heavier the other. And if i walk a bit too fast, my left cheek will be wobbling up and down.
All i could do is to use ice-pack and pray...
oH God...
On a brighter note, my wound has stopped bleeding completely!! Yay... =D
Deo Volente prayed to God at 1:53 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
hah...
I now declare myself lack of human wisdom
(ps. cuz i jus removed one of my four wisdom tooth... gonna remove the other one next round)
SO
NOW i need GOD's wisdom... heh..
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On a serious note, I went to extract my wisdom tooth at National Dental Centre today. The operation was scheduled at 9.30am. As I heard lots of horror stories of wisdom tooth extraction, I was slightly apprehensive. I was supposed to remove 2 of my bottom wisdom teeth. However, I decided to remove one first so that at least I have my other side for eating and drinking. Hah... If not I dunoe how I would survive.
I went for the local anesthetic which means that I will be fully awake and aware of my surroundings throughout the operation. The dentist injected 3 jabs of the anesthetic and before i knew it half of my mouth, gums, tongue went numb. It felt funny but yet it was a great feeling! Hah.. I couldn't stop smiling and giggling to myself.
Soon, I was wrapped up, including my eyes. So all I could see was just a bright light. It was quite scary cuz it felt like I was on the death bed dying. Before I knew it, the dentist was cutting my gums thought I felt nothing at all. All i knew was that I was singing an old hymm. I can't really remember it now but I was just singing and singing and worshipping God.
I think the most horrifying part was when the dentist started drilling my wisdom teeth in order to break them up into smaller pieces for easier extraction. Though I couldn't see or feel any pain except for the virbation of the drilling, the loud drilling sound was enough to cause me to imagine the bloody mass that was being created. However, I kept my focus on God. Heh.. Only HE can save me now. Again before i know it, the dentist had already taken out my wisdom tooth and was in the sitching up process. Within less than 10 mins, everything was done and I gave a sigh of relief. Heh... Finally, it was all over.
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Now, the wound has finally stopped bleeding.
Thank GOD for the quick and successful operation! Heh.. It wasn't as bad as I thought.
Thank GOD for my mum who accompanied me down for the surgery and her concern over me.
Thank GOD for my dad who called me from JB to wish me all the best for the surgery.
Thank GOD for my cg members who prayed for me.. Esp Brendan..
Thank GOD for my ns friends.. Lingo and Louis who answered my qns on the operation.
Our GOD is a great GOD =D
Deo Volente prayed to God at 5:55 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
I just came home from Colin's Mum's funeral wake.
Colin seems much better today. Though he still seems a bit lost and uncertain how to handle the situation, he is still coping pretty well. I managed to find my way down to the housing block of funeral wake. Thank God I didn't get lost. By the time I reach down there, it was already 9.45pm. I rushed down after my Bible Study at Riverwalk. Joshua also went down to the funeral wake today.
=p
I'm so so freaking tired. Yawns.
Nights ppl.
Deo Volente prayed to God at 12:09 AM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Nick Vujicic is simply amazing!
He certainly shows how the glory, power and strength of God is perfected and displayed through his disabilities and weaknesses. Though he has been born without any limbs, he lives a fulfilling life that has certainly achieved more than anyone of us who is born with all 4 normal limbs.
Indeed, only when we are weak then are we strong!
Deo Volente prayed to God at 11:48 PM
Colin's mum has passed away at around 1am on the 11th Sept 2007.
Though I have never talked to her face-to-face before, I felt a burden for her in my heart. When I went down to TTSH the night before, I really felt in my spirit that healing would take place in her body. However, God, in His mighty ways, didn't cause physical healing to take place.
Perhaps spiritual and emotional healing was taking place.
Healing that can't be seen but can be felt.
May God's hand be upon Colin and his family!
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This entry is dated 10th Sept.
I just came back from Tan Tock Seng Hospital.
I went to visit Colin's mum who suffered a terrible stroke on Sunday morning and had been in a deep coma till now. When I arrived at the ICU, it seems that his mum had been already declared brain dead by the doctor and was suriving on life-support. The family members were trying their best to prolong the time before making the decision to pull the plug out, so as to give Colin's mum a second chance to wake up from her coma. However as time passes, it seemed that all hope was waning away. A second opinion was sought after in order to accurately access the critical situation. All the family members, relatives, friends and church friends were present. Together, we prayed for Colin's mum.
Colin remained strong throughout the whole ordeal. He was the one keeping the family together - his father and older brother. However, I could sense that at any one moment, he could simply just breakdown and cry. He had to stay strong for the sake of his family.
I guess what scares me most was how fast the entire incident started and ended. It only took 2 days! After 2 days, everything and everyone has changed in the family. To think that Colin and his family were actually planning for a family holiday trip a few days before this incident. I guess we must really really treasure what we have with us now!
May God bless and comfort Colin and his family!
Deo Volente prayed to God at 12:08 AM
